this is weird

living in a timeless scene. i was just outside, standing in the rain and for some reason this phrase kept popping in my head. i started to think about what it could possibly mean, and why i couldn't get it out of my head. i think maybe it's what i always strive for. i've been lookin back on my days, and everything seems to be so complacent. i wake up, do nothing all day, then go back to bed to do it all over again. sure there's important things goin on, like younglife for example. hanging out with kids, being a fisher of men so to speak, but even that has started to feel weird and different. all of a sudden i've been feeling pressures of this world, as in what i'm going to do with my life, i have ideas of what i want to do, but have absolutely no idea of how to obtain them. the one thing i tried to do, ended up failing. so what the heck? life can be worrisome sometimes. and i'm not used to worrying. i've decided that this timeless scene is eternity. i can't wait. lets take a pause. im currently watching the jimmy fallon show, and the new kids on the block are performing. these guys are still trying to be sexy and singing about how girls turn em on and stuff. get real. haha. but anyways, let me give ya a picture of how i comprehend eternity.

i'm given a feather. at this point of my feather acquirement, a metal orb, 100 times the size of the sun comes into the atmosphere and floats 2 meters above the earths surface. but only for ten seconds, then it goes away. and doesn't come back for another 2000 years. now in that ten seconds of time that the large metal orb is here, i get to hit it only one time with my feather in hopes that i'm chipping some of the metal off..with my feather. when that metal orb, that is 100 times the size of the sun and that i hit with my feather one time every 2000 years, is the size of a pea..that would be the end of eternity.

kind of a cool way of picturing something that can't be comprehended eh?

all of these thought landed me somehow on the idea of the dangerous prayer. something we might hear about, but don't really know how to do. last time i made a 'dangerous prayer', my life went on a spiral, but thankfully ended up back at the cross. i used to always think of a 'dangerous prayer' as being of envious feelings. at least thats what my one 'dangerous prayer' was all about. but now i look at dangerous prayers as something of the complete opposite. i feel like a 'dangerous prayer' is just being honest with God. i feel like most of us try to hide some feelings and thoughts from God. what's more dangerous than someone truly knowing everything about you? and if your saying "not me kevin" well then i'm happy for you. but as for me i know this is true. i guess there's just a feeling of shame, telling God what's really going on in life. if this is all God wants from us, to be completely open with Him, then why the heck do we make it so hard? life is weird.

on another note, im pumped for some phil wickham and leeland action on thursday. gonna be there with a butt load of my friends. not expecting to go to sleep thursday night, i feel like to many epic situations will be presented.

this was a weird post haha.